Today you turn one.
It seems like yesterday that I was wishing for you when I blew out my 26th birthday candles. I found out I was pregnant a couple months later and I’ll never forget how overwhelmed with emotions I was when I saw the positive sign on the pregnancy test. I literally collapsed to the bathroom floor and started sobbing. Happy tears of course. I wanted to tell your daddy in person, but he was at work, so I impatiently waited ALL day for him to get home. When I heard him about to walk in the door I put a sign around Harleys neck that read, “Mama’s pregnant! You are going to be a Dad!” He was in shock and was SO excited! He picked me up and spun me around and we couldn’t wait for what was to come.
Your daddy was born to be a Dad. He never missed a single doctor’s appointment all throughout my pregnancy. I remember our very first appointment. We had no idea what we were in for and then the doctor placed the monitor on my belly and we heard your heart beat for the very first time. She said she wished she had been recording us because tears flooded down both our faces. I’m crying just writing this because I remember thinking I already loved you so much, but little did I know how much more I was going to love you and continue to love you everyday.
At 7:09 pm on March 25, 2017 you were born and immediately placed on my chest. Your daddy was cuddled next to us and uncontrollable tears streamed down our faces as we stared at you in awe. God is so good. You were heaven sent. All 6 pounds 11 oz. and 19 inches of you were perfect. Your head full of dark hair was perfect. Your cry was perfect. Your tiny hands and feet were perfect. The angel kisses on your eyelids were perfect. Everything about you was perfect and I am eternally grateful.
I admit, I felt like I had no idea what I was doing once you were here and I had no idea what being a mother really meant. Jeez, how things have changed. The first night in the hospital I was exhausted from labor. Your daddy stayed up all night rocking you, changing you and laying you on my chest to nurse. I was so scared to leave the hospital because I didn’t want to make any mistakes.
This year has been the best, the hardest and fastest year of my life. In a way, we have both grown together this year. You have learned SO much and so have I. You would change, and I would google what to do next and, in many ways, you taught me more than I taught you.
And here you are, a one year old- our thriving, smiling, smart beautiful baby girl. You are bigger than life and we love you more than life.
You are sunshine mixed with a little hurricane. You have been smiling since the womb. I’m not kidding! When we had our 4D ultra sound you we caught you smiling! You love waving and you say in the cutest, sweetest voice, “hiiiiiii.” When you hear laughing, you laugh. There’s nothing in the world I love more than your giggles. You eat anything and everything I put in front of you. Daddy calls you the garbage disposal.
For the past year you’ve been my biggest worry (sorry mom, I get it now) and my biggest joy. We’ve spent almost every day together; laughing, dancing, singing and strolling the aisles of target. When I think of life before you, it feels like something was missing, as if it wasn’t complete yet. You made me complete. I am proud of many things in life but NOTHING beats being your mama. You bring unspeakable happiness to my heart.
My daughter, my future best friend I wish you the happiest birthday and I’ll continue to do backflips everyday just to see you smile.
Always and forever,
FOREVER IS OURS
I can't thank you enough for capturing these photos.
They are so special to me!
Welcome to my life as a wife and soon- to-be mama!